Blog post 2/30 - unedited

 Start time: 9.14pm

This is day 2 of my writing challenge. It is called write from your heart and although I am hating to express at this moment, but I will go through with the challenge and write from my heart.

My head is exploding. It is full with lots of thoughts. Most of it could be sad thoughts but again there are some positive thoughts too. When I couldn’t handle them, I chose to record tonight’s podcast episode and maybe see if that settles me down. I have been locked in a dark room talking for 50mins over the phone doing what I love doing the most, sharing my voice and impacting the community. Sometimes doing what we love settles down our moods. I am kinda cheered up now and getting lots of calls. Sorry guys I won’t be picking up tonight, please understand.

What are you worth? Or let me rephrase, how much are you worth? Do you have an hourly rate of your time? How much is spending or doing 1hr of something worth to you?

For me, my time is worth lots. I know I seem free and doing lots of fun stuff most of the time but I still have untouchable time too. What’s more worth than even my time is my mind. I feel like our mind is the biggest resource we have, bigger and more expensive than lots of golds. Combine these two and you get my point..

Whatever you put your time and mind on has to be worth how much you are worth. If you expect my time and my ideas and thoughts, it has to be worth how much I make it worth. It has to be what I deserve, how much input I am adding, how much efforts I am bringing, how much ideas I am generating and how much influence I am having. If I don’t bring any of these; inputs, efforts, ideas, thoughts, influence and impact, then I might be worth zero to you. But when I bring all these, and you price me way lower than my worth, then that’s disrespect. I hope this sums up my thoughts tonight and I still have 150 more words to write, let me try to make it something sweet lol.

As I was writing this, 3 other guys were in my room and one of them asked, what kind of people does Somalia need? A Burundian friend answered pointing at me. I stopped writing happy to receive such a compliment but then I asked him why me? And this was his reply, it definitely made my night bright and I hope you learn and take the wisdom from it.

Hassan said, “ he knows what he is doing, he doesn’t sleep without finishing his work. He has a target and unless he reaches, his day does not end. Somalia needs more of him” 

I never imagined how small words could brighten and change feelings in a second. I was hating these three guys being in the room, I wanted my loneliness but I had to finish my podcast and blog. I got words which still makes me happy this second. And finally, I wrote over 500 words again, for a second consecutive day. Thank you for bearing with me as I throw out my feelings which might not be what you wanted to hear. If you read till here, I appreciate you. Goodnight.

End time: 9:38pm